Thursday, September 29, 2005
ok i couldn't resist. lol. just too bored. gave up attempting to mug SEA history. its just really really boring and pointless. i know how much the PAP wants us to appreciate and be proud of singapore's and south east asia's history etc etc (in short propaganda), but its unbelievably uneventful. just accept that europe and china and america and basically the rest of the world won us in this aspect, ok.
hai. spore students nowadays. was gazing out of my living room windows and caught a glimpse of this primary school girl in uniform trudging home with her head down. she was carrying this humongous bag on her shoulders and a thick stack of files. it was approximately 15 mins ago which means 6.25?
and i was thinking, poor thing. she has to wake up at 6 in the morning, endure a whole day of teacher's ramblings and boring lessons in the sweltering heat, go for cca, then arrive back 12 hours later in the late evening to her parents' nagging and a whole pile of homework and revision for tests and exams. probably has to burn midnight oil too. and lets not even go into her social life ( if there is one). all at the age of 11? 12? no wonder she appears to be so tired, she's practically a walking cadaver.
and this process repeats itself for 16 years of her life.
its just....sad. no other word for it. all our youth burned to cinders like that. its a miracle we're all not going insane and running around screaming like headless chickens.
anyway.
am most likely dropping maths. even if i can keep my 4 subs or not...i would still seriously consider dropping it. quoting shuf, its been a pain in my ass for years. i'm just so sick and tired of this boring, useless, tedious subject. i hate having to practise and practise and if i don't, i flunk everything. the only reason why i took it back then is cause 4 As are better than 3. but at this rate....i'd rather have 3 As than 1 A and 3 Bs you know? its just dragging me down down, and down some more. like wtf.
i'm just a little girl in a great big world whose vastness i can't even begin to comprehend. once again, i'm worrying abt my own insignificant problems while so many more things are happening out there. the theatrics on the global stage.
hai. ponned sch today, and guess what. it didn't really help after all. damn.
i want so much so much more but i'm just too lazy. sloth really is my greatest sin.
i wish the sky would just fall down already-
