Sunday, November 27, 2005
blissful days. ahhh. the golden period of my life is right now. and blogger sucks. this is the closest i could find for gold font. it was either this or this or this. so yeah. havent blogged in a long time. haha.i just love life now. its been smth i've wanted to do since forever, all the way back in sec 4, to the end of O levels, til my entire j1 yr, and now, finally finally i have the time for it. slacking.its not anti-climax ok. there's this beauty in just doing nothing. having entire days with absofuckinglutely nothing to do. blissful carefree long slow lazy days doing whatever i want, which sometimes happens to be nothing :) just lzaing around, lying on my bed with jay chou playing on the radio, or slashing and ficcing online, or tanning by the pool or watching episodes of the OC (thanks shuf!) or just stoning wherever i am. this. is. the. life.recalled peggy hsu's lyrics and i really like them. i forgot the song name, but in the chorus, she basically waxes lyrical about buying a boat and spending her life on the seas, leading a carefree uncluttered life. she just missed out a part about doing that all alone though. i really think that solitary time is extremely important. i just can't get why some ppl are so afraid to be alone, and have to have company with them all the time. i mean, i'm not propagating the whole yoga-esque, reflection time, inner spiritual development shit. but if you're not even comfortable with being by yourself, it says volumes about you. it says that you don't know who you are, and being a normal human being, you are naturally afraid of the unknown (which explains all the biasness and discrimination in the world but yeah). it says that you're so boring, you can't even entertain yourself. it says that you follow the herd mentality. it basically means that you're insecure.but yeah these are just theories, i'm not accusing anyone of anything, please don't sue me :)but sometimes, i'd rather just be alone. all by myself, with nothing to worry about. bliss. ahhh.anyway. what did i want to blog about. oh yeah my cousin's wedding was a sort-of disaster. the bride didn't runaway and the building didn't implode if thats what you're thinking. the evening just simply culminated into a politically-grounded tension-filled event. sometimes...i just feel that tradition is stpid, and this is one of those times. to make things simple, the problem lay with the seating arrangements. my dad's side, which is supposedly the "bigger" side, because of the fact that my aunt married into my dad's family, was made to sit behind my aunt's side ( her family, i.e. the niang jia side). we (my dad's side, i.e. him, his family, and his siblings and families) were made to seat in the third row, while my aunts side (her siblings and their families) took the 2nd row. 1st row was of course the vip row, where my cousin and my aunt/uncle and my cousin-in-law (is that what i call him now?) and his immediate family sat.get it?so basically the my dad's side wasn't happy about it. you could see the aunties gossipping all through the wedding, and even my dad, my mild "anything" dad, was pissed. they saw it as being snubbed. my sister and I, and the "younger generation", wouldn't even have noticed this fact if our parents hadn't told us la. seriously, i don't think my aunt or whoever made the seating arrangements meant to spite us. my cousin just happened to be closer to the cousins on my aunt's side, and so they sat closer to her.simple isn't it?i mean, overlooking tradition, which is ridiculous really, it makes perfect sense. its not like we're that close to my cousin. why should we occupy the closer seats so that the people whom she's closer with sit further away from her?really. what a mess. next time i'm going far far away to get married. i'm serious. when i mentioned this to my parents, they just gave me an indulging smile and reminded me to book plane tickets for everybody. i don't think they get it. hello? far away? as in my beloved and I and no one else? maybe my close friends and if i'm feeling generous, my immediate family haha, but definitely no "outside" people. no 100 tables at some fanciful chinese restaurant. no huge wedding reception at some grand church. no nothing. and definitely no tradition or proprieties. nothing which pisses me off. nothing that restricts my freedom in any way.ok i haven't finished my story. so guess what my haughty, mature parents did? they snubbed my aunt and her family back. on the way out after the wedding dinner, they didn't even speak a word to them, just shook their hands and walked off. i mean normally, i would have whooped and clapped and yelled rock ON or smth lol, but this time, i think they're just being immature.hai.went to shuf's house on wed to mug, which ended up turning into a chat session haha. i knew it la! lols.had class outing at eud's house on fri. played cards and mahjong and watched beauty and the beast and the first harry potter movie. daniel radcliffe's face was definitely much rounder last time haha. i still detest ron though. and hermione's hair is so nice now! hmmmmjust wanna shout out to eud: thanks babe! haha i know we trashed your house and stuff, so sorry abt the cleaning up part yeah? the class gathering was fun though :)oh man my biological clock is seriously screwed up. i'm sleeping at 4am and waking up at 2pm nowadays. bloody vampire la. oh shit! i'm late for dinner, haven't changed and all. ima go now, gotta run.byelagye-
