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the centre of the world for me to hold on to. that's all i ask for.
its a weird weird place out there.
its a world i've grown to resent yet love. it grows on me as i grow. nothing stays the same i guess.
havent blogged in what 4 days now? and alot has happened and yet very little.
watched ice age 2 on tues. it was very very funny but kinda lost the original appeal. the first movie was so fresh and new the faults in the plot could be overlooked, but by the second one its kinda like the jokes are funny yeah but anyth else?
got back cts. hmmm. not bad, definite improvement from last year's absymal results. lets not even go there haha. in fact it could even be considered decent results (from my pov of course) for a last minute study rush. econs still as horrific as ever but its two grades up from last yr's F. lol. hist C, lit D, gp B3. i realise whitby's helped me alot this year. compare and contrast poems :)))
sea hist didnt' improve as much as i thought it would, considering i actually had some content to write about this time, but int history surprised as me as always. would have gotten a B if not for sea.
pw results back today! what a surprise. unexpected event with an unexpected grade. well thanks so much alvin jonathan and eudora my lovely lovely group mates. hahaha! would never have gotten this band 1 grade without you guys. just...it was a long and ardous journey, and it all came through in the end. whew. :)))
drinks on me anytime! lols. just not ms amazon blackforest. lucky we kept the door grill slide.
it was strange though. i felt really bad at that time. elation mixed with this unbearable awkwardness and guilt and vulnerability all into one. matters were not helped. the world doesn't revolve around us.
i don't know what to feel anymore. its like this crimson pit and i'm confused and frustrated but i know i should be so happy. its guilt and pain and pity and sorrow all rolled together to form an unbelievably convoluted mess. i'm so lost and i don't even know how to explain it. am i being dumb? it was going to be so perfect and then some.
i just wish it could have been a mass celebration.
okay time to cut down on the angst. too much of it turns one into a drama queen. going to watch lost now. tchews! (or however its spelt)

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