Monday, May 01, 2006
aw man my whole body's ACHING like crazy.
i hate napfa. period.
speaking of which mine's overdue but anyway it wasnt too bad. sit ups A as usual (i mean i dont think anyone hits below B for sit ups), sit and reach B (RAHHH I JUST MISSED A was feeling too bloated) shuttle run just missed B, surpassed myself in pull ups by a whole grade to B. i broke my record! did 14 pull ups for the first time since primary school. hahaha. i'm so proud of myself :)))however (and there's always a however), i failed SBJ lols. expected it right frm the start. i mean since when have i ever passed decently or even passed? people legs short means legs short la.
just stood there trying valiantly to swing my arms and looking like an idiotic windmill in the process while ppl like wl can jump 180+++ without any armswinging on the first try. she just walks up to the mat, puts her feet behind the line, bends her knees once and springs off. voila!
blink and you'll miss it. dang why i cant be skinny and light too.
i'm not even
thinking about 2.4 on tues. dunno how i'm going to run it when even bending my knees hurts for me. okays enough whining.
went to suntec on fri with yuks and angel. ate at carl's junior YUMS. chili cheese beef fries for me. delish stuff. am gg to try the superstar burger next time.
had napfa then tuition then dinner at ms clarity's on sat. then went to eat ding tai feng at j8 today with my family and ahma. awesome fried rice, but the other food wasn't that spectacular really. and we ordered a normal amount of food for once (which in our vocabulary is
underordering), so my dad and mum sat there looking forlornly hungry for most of the meal. haha. long story. meeting shuf and yuks tmr!
my sis is leaving for hk this thurs. and she's gg to sweden for the law exchange program this august. oh man. i dunno what to feel.
i mean for one, its one less person in the house to quarrel and fight over the bathroom with. not that we fight that much anymore, things are much better nowadays (read: subdued.) but on the other hand, once she leaves, the only other person my mum can talk to in the house is ME. cuz my dad does shifts, he's rarely home (and if he is, he usually reads the newspapers, watches the news and then sleeps) and most of the time its me and my mum and sis in the house.
and because i get tired of trying to converse with my mum (dont even get me started), she turns to my sister instead to pour out all her woes. which are really rather insignificant considering she doesnt even work (excuse: 'daddy's already the breadwinner what' . i mean hello have some PRIDE and BACKBONE can), and spends all her time either doing housework, going to her infinite dancing classes or chatting on the phone.
how can anyone stand having this kind of life!!?? i mean want to slack also slack with SEH can.
so anyway she complains to my sis about her tragic life issues all the time, and my sis listens (if she's in a good mood- she's kind of kiasu you see). but once my sis leaves, and for a whole YEAR too, she's probably going to turn to me!! MEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!
during my A level period!!!!!!!! which means all the cooped up stress of not gossiping to my sister and not being able to communicate well with me will translate into MORE NAGGING!!!!!!!!!
*screams and runs around in circles*
i can already predict thats gg to happen. i'll start gg crazy or smth. i'll need a therapist just like one of those angsty celebs who supposedly cant deal with their life issues or fame issues (think nicole richie).
luckily, (or unluckily), shuf's bro is gg to ns soon too. which means her mum will start bugging her more too. so we're prob gg to go kap to mug everyday together haha. anywhere but home. i was even thinking of us moving in together in one house, and our mums taking the other house HAHAHAHA. wouldn't that be perfect. they can yak and yak to each other all day long. and probably drive each other up the wall in the process.
anyways, i'm looking at this from the objective point of view. besides the incovenience, of course i'll
miss my sister as well. i guess. strangely enough, i don't miss my parents. i wasn't exactly pining for them to come back when they went on the cruise trip together. but a few years agoo ,when my sis went for her one week nepal trip, i found myself thinking of her by friday, wishing she would come back soon to take the pressure off me by my parents. as in, well i missed her too yeah?
i had this really weird dream recently, from which i woke up crying. its like i dreamt i just found out my sister was getting married and was moving out, and the marriage was on the day itself and my parents and i didn't even know who the groom was! so it was like she was moving away with this unknown stranger all of a sudden and it really hurt. i was crying out of the unfairness of it all and at the prospect of her sudden departure, really just hot bitter tears. and during our helping out for her wedding preparations that morning, my sis could somehow sense our tears and said "don't do this to me today la" in a very soft voice. it was so heartbreaking. i never even knew i cared so much.
is it just me or do i have kind of weird dreams??!! you haven't heard my worst yet.
far from it. heynow you'reanallstar-
