Thursday, May 25, 2006
The white halo loses to the golden dust.
To glitter and fade. To breathe deep and die.
Life to death and Death to life.
My tears fall into the clear sapphire ocean and dissolve.
I'm so tired and sleepy. My head hurts. My body hurts. it all hurts so bad it hurts. This is killing me slowly. Sapping my life energy away.
Eyes flutter open to see wide shut. The dryness stings my pupils; my eyelids are rendered useless, for no amount of blinking can erode the harsh severity of it.
Flying over rainbows while sunsets sink.
My stomach rumbles, I am superbly drained to an infinite speck of aching eternity whose vastness transcends even the oldest grain of sand and all Comprehension.
Time flows by river-like, but it is- no,
they are rivulets of fluvial ocean, where time ceases to exist at all.
Lovers cry as the tired wind chases the sun away.
this is what one period of econs lect can do to your brain. totally nonsensical whimsical stuff. i came, i saw, i stoned. or rather, i came, i saw, and i slept. haha. take your pick. both about the same to me. wanted to blog from my phone but was worried about the hp bill. already got into trouble for it before. rarrhhh long story. so i just wrote it down instead to keep myself from toppling over the brink of insanity. the drama!i am so utterly exhausted (hahaha i nearly typed 'udderly') my eyes cant even keep open.BUT (and there's always a but) i feel accomplished!shu-en the great has done it again! she has rushed last minute work out and completed lynette lim's history SBQ on the bloody dance-dance Congo. i swear everytime i see that word the first thing that comes to mind is dancers in long hula skirts and straw hats. plus i finished copying mel's BNW notes over frm that chapter i missed! and frankly i didnt miss much lols. haiiiyah. today was sports day but dont feel like blogging about it. just totally boring and uneventful and hot and tiring.is it really just me?!i know its not, it cant be. and i've seen others who share my POV as well.but sometimes what i hear some other ppl say does make sense and i'm forced to consider if its just a state of mind. but then again everything is a state of mind isn't it? happiness is just the release of endorphins in your brain. don't know why i'm being so angsty again. must be the exhaustion. was doing BNW and thinking about morals, and you know what.its true. morals are something that Man constructed. its man-made.i did this exercise before when all this thinking got the better of me and i had to write stuff down to make better sense of it. so i wrote - argh i cant tell u what i wrote. i have to find it first haha. but anyway i wrote out my entire thought process, cancelling here and editing there and i realised that we are born amoral.for those of you who are thinking DUH ISNT THAT OBVIOUS DONT TELL ME BABIES ARE EVIL, well thats cuz you learnt that we are born amoral, but have you ever pondered WHY we are born amoral and how we gain morals?okay shall save the preachiness for next time hahaha. i'll type out the pages and pages of what i scribbled down. scribblings.mad scribblings from a mad girl who is inclined to distrust evangelists, sexists, religious fanatics, homophobes, racists and bigots of all sorts.strangely enough, through my pursuit of open-mindednessI have gained intolerance.
I see your true colours, that's why I love youI see your true colours shining through-
