what a fucking terrible time to blog. my first paper is on wednesday (okay technically tomorrow) and i'm so behind in some of my modules its not even funny. it feels like my actual revision hasn't even started yet. but sometimes when you get the feeling and can't shake it off, you just gotta let it out somehow.
i've been on facebook, and reading blogs (i know, why not read my anthropology textbook which i haven't even finished yet, right :S) and i've been thinking, thank god. i feel lucky and happy. and i probably sound like i'm on drugs except i'm not. i'm just at a really good place in my life now, probably one of the best, if not the best, because i'm doing what i love, and enjoying it, and learning and making friends along the way as well. what other time in Life does one have these moments. i feel like i've been so lucky all my life, growing up in decent financial conditions, never having to worry about hunger or poverty or crime or abortions, and i've just had a really good life, so i can't complain. are these the best days of my life? i don't know yet, but they are some of the best thus far. i'm so glad that this is who i am, where i am, with friends i love. i can go to lectures i enjoy and listen to music on the bus. i can eat food i like and sleep when dawn breaks. i can go to school randomly any day during study week and find people to meet, or even just join them in school and it's like never feeling lonely anywhere. i do appreciate my friends, and i do realise people are going to think i'm snobbish or bitchy but seriously, go make friends. it's not that hard. *note: feeling lonely does not mean being alone. one can have lots of fun being alone! i always feel one of the greatest tragedies is people feeling bored. how can one ever feel bored being alone? it simply implies that you cannot even entertain yourself, that your own personality and stream of thought is too dull to interest even you. and that says alot. anyway what the hell am i talking about. it's like 4.25am and i still need to mug. what the fuck. i hope david archuleta wins idol, with a david-david finale. can you imagine ryan seacrest going:" and the winner of american idol 2008 is David....", and everyone just holding their breath for the last name. so exciting. i just cant wait. god i'm obsessed. two things i'm obsessed with right now. AI and soccer. we can still win the double this year, come on you red devils! belief and determination is all it takes. what the fuck am i doing still typing random shit?! shit man, i'm hungry.
life can be so full of ups and downs and i love it. i love it all. i'm probably going to end up in some mental asylum before i'm even 30.
keep my head above the water; smokey mountain memories keep me strong-
